from the heart

well, well, well. it seems over than a year that i'm becoming a teacher. its school holiday, and i'm still in school. no worries, this thursday (1st December) should be my homecoming. well during my KISSM course at Sandakan that 22 Nov was my 1st anniversary as a teacher. emmm... what i want to write??? this past one year have been a journey of enlightenment, i learned so many yet understood so little. i always asked myself whether i'm up to this responsibility. teacher is not a job, it's a responsibility that this 'teacher' persona should carry. so many things happen during my one year here. my question for this is, what will happen next year? a question that i have to wait to get the answer. i'm still wondering on who should be trust, who should be ignored, who is right, who is wrong, who to be friend with, and most importantly can i teach??? (should be this first). how long can i be this person, how long can i suppressed the real me? bla bla bla... always the same question that keep on playing my mind. i always said i don't care what others have to said about me? but the truth is, i'm the one that try best not to care about it. well, enough with lamenting things that still cloudy. soon i'll be home, but my heart always been home.  

from the heart

it is so funny when there is people who do not realize on how people despise him like a lot. do not blame me for changing to a different person, you do not know me and do not want to know you. i do my best to change to somebody that is nice and i try it with my best. but it did not work. so get a life. freaks!

from the heart

hohoho... the week that start weirdly. guess i didn't plan that well. but i still hope things will change for better. everything is still puzzling my mind, maybe this is only the way for Him to test me. i will always remember to be sincere in everything that i do.

from the heart

'for your information, i'm just 'acting nice'. i don't mind what others are saying; liar or a hypocrite; call me and i don't care. this is my way on inflicting damage to people; destroying them from the inside.'