from the heart

It's July everyone. Looking back these days, what have I accomplished??? I don't really know. Hihihi. I should go back to my real world, leaving the la la la land. These 2 world should not be mixed up. I will try to do it. Don't worry, will do. Before I forget, Only One by Boa is my current song.

from the heart

it's that holiday again; for two weeks. blablabla. well so many things happen. i stop thinking about it. too many thing, too may stuff. just too much. i'm living my life, one that i created. judging to my age, maybe i should change. it's working time. and i should do it the way i think that i should do it. never too late for a changes. just want to have the nice one. thanks for reading. see you again soon.

from the heart

i try so hard, but it just didn't go as planned. what is happening really? am i really that bad? why i can't do it the way that my imagination said it will be...

from the heart

I've learned that one of the greatest bliss was to forgive and forget.

from the heart

currently alone in the house. well it's a first semester mid break, everyone is going back home, plus its a Chinese new year celebration. gong xi fa chai. heheheh. i'm use to staying alone in the house. there are some of the teacher who's not going back too.

from the heart

how to think with heart and feel with brain?

from the heart

if you saw this, most of my post were under the 'from the heart'. why is it like this? what really this heart want to do? i'm always that heartless person, and that is what i want to be, but i can't since it's not the real me. what should i do? being real is not my verb. i act about my life. its tiring. sometime i wonder why is it have to be this way, why i just can't be that person i know hidden, suppressed within this heartless body. what should i find in this life to fulfill life that seems to be out of my reach. my dreams, a broken dreams, a dream of near perfection that just too far, too hard to be reach. life is unsorted, as i try to sort it, it back to circle one. back to the beginning, or is it just unsortable. why i can't create my life like story that i read, dramas that i watch, where i know there will be happy ending for me. a long question, a question that i need to know what the answer is. but seems too messy, just too understandably, intangible... unattainable.

from the heart

life as we know is different but it might be the same too. what is it that playing in my mind? as i try to uncover it, i realize it that i know the answer for a long time. it is something that i always know and will always know. to hide it, i do anything in my power to suppressed it even to the level of destroying myself. it this is the sacrifice that i need to do, and i will always do it. locking my heart when it is begging to be unlock. huh.