from the heart

time to leave my heart again. the time is almost up. i'm bringing this heartless body to there one more time, hopefully by next year will be my last time leaving like this. it destroy everything that surrounds me.

from the heart

well, well, well. it seems over than a year that i'm becoming a teacher. its school holiday, and i'm still in school. no worries, this thursday (1st December) should be my homecoming. well during my KISSM course at Sandakan that 22 Nov was my 1st anniversary as a teacher. emmm... what i want to write??? this past one year have been a journey of enlightenment, i learned so many yet understood so little. i always asked myself whether i'm up to this responsibility. teacher is not a job, it's a responsibility that this 'teacher' persona should carry. so many things happen during my one year here. my question for this is, what will happen next year? a question that i have to wait to get the answer. i'm still wondering on who should be trust, who should be ignored, who is right, who is wrong, who to be friend with, and most importantly can i teach??? (should be this first). how long can i be this person, how long can i suppressed the real me? bla bla bla... always the same question that keep on playing my mind. i always said i don't care what others have to said about me? but the truth is, i'm the one that try best not to care about it. well, enough with lamenting things that still cloudy. soon i'll be home, but my heart always been home.  

from the heart

it is so funny when there is people who do not realize on how people despise him like a lot. do not blame me for changing to a different person, you do not know me and do not want to know you. i do my best to change to somebody that is nice and i try it with my best. but it did not work. so get a life. freaks!

from the heart

hohoho... the week that start weirdly. guess i didn't plan that well. but i still hope things will change for better. everything is still puzzling my mind, maybe this is only the way for Him to test me. i will always remember to be sincere in everything that i do.

from the heart

'for your information, i'm just 'acting nice'. i don't mind what others are saying; liar or a hypocrite; call me and i don't care. this is my way on inflicting damage to people; destroying them from the inside.'

from the heart

the almost one week holiday is almost over. tomorrow i'm back to work. hope everything will go smoothly.

new jam

i like this song.

from the heart

no matter how much i try to be the perfect person, i just can't.

from the heart

sometime, i stop and think if i'm good enough to teach them. i always feel, i'm not good enough. hopefully they will get the best.

from the heart

why there is so many secret that i know?

back home

look like another 10 weeks to go before a long 6 weeks holiday.

from the heart

why there is people that like to talk bad about other people when they are just the same. it's like in a malay proverb 'bagai ketam mengajar anaknya berjalan lurus'. how funny that is. when there is something good, well you should be blessed if they ever talk a word of it. they just some FREAKS for me.

from the heart

it is hard to start with, the people you know how to say that they are wrong. i don't know. should i say, i don't care. bla bla bla, but then why should i care about other people. well i guess, in trying to be this one particular person that is the one that is accepted by everyone, i am doing this. buhuuu. 

new jam

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8uBCF-cWuY
currently i'm addicted to this song.

back to school

well the Hari Raya and 2nd semester mid break is over. now, i'm back to school. hohoho. there is another 11 weeks before the long school breaks.

time to go home

well, so many things happen. happy, sad; everything i feel it. time that i'm waiting for is almost there. i don't want to complaint, i'm thankful that i'm here. what past is past. life can be easy; it can be adventurous. i'm following my time; and now its time for me to go back where i'm from. WP Labuan.

from the heart

Its funny on how love can change your life.

blast from the past

one of my happy moment.

from the heart

i know i'm not the best person out there. but, i always trying my best to be one. sometimes, i do forget what i really want. i do what other people asked me to do, i listen to what other people have to said, i do anything to please other people feelings, and sometimes i tried so hard that i don't realize it's killing me from the inside. i afraid that someday i'm loosing it, realizing i'm just the nothing. 

from the heart

easy is just part of life, life is more then easy.

from the heart

'as i try to don't care, all the story begin to unfold piece by piece. what else is in store?'

from the heart

"they said too much about him, most of the time it just tearing his heart"

Kem Kepimpinan Pra-U 2011 (5-7 July 2011)

Our pre-u university, some still calling them form 6 though. This camp is more on injecting the leadership quality among the low pre-u students. Lots of thing happens, happy, sad, shocking, creepy, freaky, etc. Hopefully, those who are taking part in this camping will taking all the good things and leave behind those bad stuff. "Changing to be a better person each day"

English Cluster (English Lab Mural Painting *6/7/11)

It is one of the activity that our English Cluster did for this year. More will come. Sadly not even half of the committee attended this activity. Maybe they have other priorities that are needed to be finished. Hohoho. Happy people.

getting started

well, i'm just getting started. i'm accidentally browsing my friends blog. i said to myself, i should have one too. before i forget, hello everyone. welcome to my blog. hope you will enjoy it here. see you again.